bitch session

Our wedding is coming up.. the End of January. It feels like a long way away, but I know in reality, its only 3 months and 27 days. We have Alot to do before our big day. Plus we have normal every day things to adhere to as well, which i have to admit.. is getting a bit stressful. Kaytlin is growing just a little too quick, needs clothes, needs school stuff, needs constant guidance as she is entering a new phase in life.. braces, entertainment and love. I'm also trying to find a new job (need more $$) and above all else, looming in my near future is the daunting nightmare that is dress shopping. I cant tell you how scared it makes a girl to go dress shopping. wedding dresses are two sizes smaller than actual sizes.. Yeah i know.. as long as you look good, who cares what the size says? WRONG.. WOMEN CARE! which leads me to my goal of dropping a little of what I gained in the last year.. CRAP CRAP CRAP!!! 30 lbs total..( had a bit of a hard year with health.. those who know me know why) well, in all reality, I know I probablly wont lose 30 lbs.. but I'd like to see at least 20 go. But its hard when all the other stresses pump cortisol into your bloodstream, which causes you to crave.. everything. so its down to good ol will power. wish me luck, or wish me will power, or wish me to win the lottery and I'll just get it surgically removed! :)
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We attended our pre-marital class last night.. I have to say.. while alot of whats discussed is common sense and of no use to us, as we have alot of that stuff down pat... they had a great discussion on the difference of men and women. How men think versus women. the discription of women and how we think and feel was VERY acurate! As I looked around the room while it was being read, people were in their own world.. fidgeting.. drawing.. one guy was tapping out whatever beat was in his head on the pad of paper in front of him.. I wanted to say "read it again!" just so some of it might be heard. there was alot of good stuff there for both sexes! i know it helped me see how i can improve my actions with my man..I never want him to feel less because of something I say, or do. I want him to know just what an awesome man he is .. always!

Women were made with a dire need to be loved and shown affection, when its not shown, we feel less about ourselves. our worthiness, it brings out our insecure side. I know its hard for guys to understand, but just that little bit and you'll have a woman who will adore you and do anything for you for the rest of your days! On the other side, it was good to see the differences they listed for men. they think more analytically, they need to be validated, to feel strong and proud, and hear that they are good men, good workers and hear they are desired. the pastor leading the class hit the nail on the head, he said " Guys are about words, thinking in the present and future, women are about actions thinking in the past and present"


This discussion really felt strong to me. We are such different people between women and men, who can act so selfish at times, and be completely unselfish at others.. it felt like answers were on the paper for all of us to see and realize how easy it really can be..

stupidity

now, any normal joe is going to take his chances with outside forces before openly admitting to illegal activities, and facing prison time.. Right? and If something Illegal of yours is stolen, would you report it to police? no.. because you have a working brain that processes that information fully before acting..all in your own best interest (well, most of you). This guy, is a complete moron, deserving to be put in the definition of "stupidity". Im sure he was more scared of the guys who were going to come after him than the police..maybe he never heard of "laying low" for awhile.

read the story
http://www.komotv.com/news/local/9851481.html

On a lighter note.. We here in Seattle are awesome. When we ban together to be proud of something new, it just shines and we want to shout it out! "RIDE THE SLUT!"

read the story
http://www.komotv.com/news/9854551.html

I cant help but be excited with Fall. I love the season change, I get excited for the school year to start, I start looking forward to seeing leaves turn colors, Halloween, Thanksgiving.. LOVE IT ALL. I'll miss Summer, but Fall has greatness to enjoy! Such as TV! All our fav shows are coming back, I can use my crock pot again, and the best reason of all??? Well, its one season closer to the best day of my life that will be coming in January. Thank God!

Speaking of:
I thanked God today for life in general. How awesome to know I am watched out for. Guided to my goal. That He brought me through everything and still will. That he brought me to my Fiance. (one e right?) everything just moves forward to the great plan He has.

Sick bastard

For a couple of years, I've followed a story on Jack McClellan. Do you know that name? He's the sick bastard that Lived in Washington(out of his car), following, stocking, watching, and taking pictures of little girls and posting them on his website to let other pedophiles know where LG's(little girls) congregate. He has always admitted he's a pedophile, but said he will never act on it. Riiiiiigggggghhhhht. history shows us, that most sick people, know matter how much they believe they wont, will eventually commit the crime. the desire becomes too much. Well, Washington Moms kick ASS! They started following him around. Taking his picture.. showing everyone they could. Telling everyone they could about him, his website and his demented sick mind. he didnt like it.. hmm go figure you sick fuck. Washington couldnt do anything about it either.. law says he has the right to post whatever he wants and go where ever he wants, Until he actually commits the crime. WTF? He stocked little girls!! So, Washington Moms finally pushed him so much and all of washington knew his face,and treated him bad(boo hoo) that he felt he couldnt live here anymore and moved to California. We didnt stop... and people did everything they could to let California know he was coming!! Go figure.. California doesnt really like him either.. hmm.. So.. take a moment and read some of the News stories on him.. they finally got a good picture of him.. so get to know that too..(he didnt like having his picture taken.. and would wear disguises in the past to avoid it) Pass it on.. let people know.. if you ever see him... let him know you know who he is.. and then follow him for awhile.. take his picture and post it EVERYwhere!!! he will eventually commit the crime..even pyschologists say that..he belongs behind bars... i hear they dont treat pedophiles kindly in prison.. hmmmmm that made me smile a little..

http://www.komotv.com/results?keywords=Jack+McClellan&searchType=gen

Are you my friend?

We all need an ear to listen to us right? I try very hard to be a good friend. To always be there for someone. To Always listen. To lend advice if asked. To be a big sister to some, to be a friend to some, to be whatever it is you need so that YOU feel cared for and have that Friend. I am a loyal person, who will give my all to someone else to help them. I know there is a difference between being a good listener and being a doormat, and I try to feel that out.. but I'm pretty bad at seeing who is using me and who is needing me. The last couple weeks have been hard for me. Stress, emotions, worries... blah blah...Well, some of the people I thought would be there for me.. were'nt (and one of them was part of the problem, she TOTALLY walked all over me, broke a promise, and all around showed me the only thing she thinks about is herself). This made me feel even worse, because this has happened through out my life.. I made myself the doormat once again. Do you not think that I need comfort too? That when things are rough, that I dont need to bounce some of my thoughts and feelings around with someone? To have someone support me a little, give me a freakin hug?? I took the day off of work and went and visited my old friend who I love with all my heart. she will ALWAYS be there for me.. and vise versa..she has a family, lives in boomfuckegypt, and we've grown up together.. but a girl needs more than just one girlfriend.. So, to Becky, Thank you for being my friend. Knowing that even though we're big girls now with families, that I dont have all the answers and i just needed someone to sit and have coffee with me, let me talk about it a little and then we just Hung out and laughed at old times, funny pictures, played with the babies.. I so needed that. you knew just what to do. you helped me put things in place and then took my mind off of stuff. Thank you my friend :)

Karen doesnt count in this.. You're my sister and my friend.. and you are ALWAYS there.. Thank you sister :) and Matt doesnt really count in here either.. cause he has no choice but to listen LOL.. jk. I love you with all my heart, you're my best friend and the love of my life!

The Cheater

I read the below article on a friends Blog site ( http://www.enemesis.org/ ) and was thoroughly disturbed. Not so much by the content that there are women cheaters, because I'm not all that surprized- the ratio was 55% of women and 60% of men cheat. But this article is shocking to me, because one of the characters was so shocked that this can happen by a woman, when he's been such a great guy, but not shocked that it happened in the past, by men, to completely great women. he saw the distruction it caused and changed his future to avoid it. Great! Good For you! But he's out there trying to set the word women are now the cheaters, making it sound as if all of them are... NOT ALL OF THEM! Maybe i'm just reading it very one sided, because im a loyal God Loving woman who would NEVER cheat and pretty much think any woman or man who would are complete diseases. Did you know there are different kinds of Cheating?? People think its Just sex with another person. But its not. There is such a thing as Emotional cheating as well, where you have a strong relationship with another female/male other than your significant other, that you tell things too, feelings, hopes, dreams, secrets.. that you arent telling your woman/man. It breaks your bond and intimacy with the one you love, you're holding back from the relationship. Porn and other like things are cheating too. they are you desiring someone other than your woman/man which changes your overall impression of them, of love and realistic desires. I hate this discussion. I hate everything about it. I dont know what kind of person can actually do these things.. its truly disgusting to me. We have control of ourselves. If you cant control yourself, why not be honest, end your current relationship and be free to do whatever the hell you want to do with another person. You distroy your current woman/man when you cheat in any way. it causes SO many insecurities, emotional trauma, untrusting and over all heart break. I just dont get it... Regardless of which sex cheats.. they're all complete low life, weak cowards who will get theirs in return. To make it work, All i can say is... Trust your other. be honest and tell them everything. Dont let anything be kept a secret. Show them your love for them, not just words. Remember why you're with them in the first place, it will strengthen your bond, make you feel like you have a true partner in life. its not a hard concept. Unless your a whore and have no respect for yourself or another person.

http://men.style.com/details/features/full?id=content_5748

Pratical Joke

I was very entertained with this story! You gotta read it.. I will admit, if my boss did that to me while i was under, I would have been pissed too. I think the fact that the boss thought this was funny is a little scary..with the power he has and all while your in his care, but a smart man... he scored over a million. check out the story: http://www.komotv.com/news/local/8749662.html